ugh I don’t even know where to begin because there’s only one thing I want right now and I can’t have it. 

1. Sam. But I can’t have him so this is irrelevant.
2. My next tattoo now, and for my mum to be okay with it. Which will never happen
3. Holiday
4. To get rid of this nagging feeling in my head and be truly happy again - I’m about 85% there, but it’s just irritating how you’re always on my mind. It’s starting to piss me off now. And the fact I keep whinging about it. I need a slap.
5. To move into the house NOW. I literally cannot wait to be back in Manchester. I need a change of pace and location
6. To have some sort of money sense so I didn’t have to worry so bloody much about it
7. A boyfriend (boo wahh aren’t I pathetic) or just someone of the opposite sex who isn’t a complete dick
8. James McAvoy
9. More hours at work
10. Ultimately, happiness

Subject to change when I can actually think of decent answers

1. Ryan Gosling (especially when wearing glasses)
2. James McAvoy
3. Colin Firth
4. Jason Segel
5. Rupert Grint

These are the first 5 that came to my head

Again, each to their own. I personally will never touch drugs, they scare me too much, especially the more manufactured drugs. I don’t know enough about them and would never ever touch them. I’ve smoked weed a few times, but to be honest I’d rather just go out and have a few drinks, it doesn’t affect me that much so it’s a waste of money. I try not to surround myself with people that do drugs, but if I won’t disregard a person because they choose to do drugs recreationally, that’s narrow minded in my opinion. It’s your choice if you want to wreck your body but it doesn’t make you a bad person. I haven’t had the experience of being around someone with an addiction, and hopefully never will. On the whole, I am 100% against drugs.

I drink and I like to drink. A lot.

This could be a long list. I used to have a load of insecurities, mainly based around my looks, but I’ve learnt that I can’t really change that so I don’t bother worrying any more. And I feel a bit more attractive as I’ve gotten older, so maybe that helps too.

My main insecurity is that I’m not enough. Whether that means clever enough, tall enough, pretty enough, interesting enough. But I’m working through that. One of my biggest fears is that I’ll never find someone who loves me the way I love them, it’s silly because I’m only young, but I always imagined that I’d be with someone now, maybe not long term, but I certainly didn’t imagine myself to be single. It stresses me out sometimes and I get told off by Rose a lot about it! But I refuse to change myself to make myself more ‘attractive’ so there’s not a lot I can do about it apart from be patient. Which pisses me off because I am the most impatient person. I’m pretty sick of getting attached to people and then being let down and losing them.

:|

Single and really really bored of it. I really like somebody, but they don’t like me back, so I currently make myself feel like crap by looking at his facebook.

I hate facebook

Each to their own, whether you believe in something or not. People shouldn’t be mocked because they believe in God(s), and people shouldn’t be mocked because they don’t. My family is religious - Catholics. My mum is the lay chaplain at my old high school, but I’m not overly religious. I believe in God but don’t agree with a lot of things in the Catholic faith. What annoys me about people is when they don’t understand or are ignorant to other faiths and call them bullshit, or stupid. Just because you don’t understand something doesn’t make it ridiculous. Have some respect.

1. I’m quite insecure at times, even though I’m confident, it’s often a bit of a mask so I can come across as a bit obnoxious, even though I’m not
2. I get jealous quite easily, mainly when I don’t know where I stand - especially in relationships
3. I rant. A lot. And it can get quite annoying :’)
4. I’m impatient
5. I act without thinking, quite a lot and especially when drunk

1. My sense of humour, cos I’m hilarious
2. I’m a good listener
3. I always weigh up both sides of an argument before making a decision, so I always think (important things) through. Makes me a bit indecisive though. I do do completely stupid ridiculous shit though.. pretty often too
4. I’m a good friend, really loyal
5. Completely honest, but without being too harsh

Homophobia is ignorant, pointless and stupid. At the end of the day we are all people, and nobody deserves to be treated differently because of sexual orientation/faith/religion/gender etc. So let gay people be happy and get married. I have no problem with it. In today’s society homophobia is narrow-minded and ridiculous.

I don’t think I’ve had my ‘worst day’ yet. I hope I never do. I’ve had bad days, but I tend to wallow for a couple of days or jump straight back on my feet and sort it out.

• The day my Grandad died was obviously terrible, but it was 6 years ago and I was thirteen so it didn’t seem real at the time.
• A-Levels results day was a pretty tough day, but instead of crying forever I rang around loads of unis and finally got onto the course I’d applied for at my insurance uni anyway. It just took longer than expected.

It hasn’t happened yet.

I don’t think I’m particularly like any fictional character. I can sympathise with some aspects of characters but there isn’t one that particularly sticks out.

I don’t know. At all. I don’t tend to pay attention to what people think of me. The only opinions that matter to me are those of my close family and friends, and they will call me out instantly if I’m being a twat.

I guess because I’m small people might think I’m some sort of ‘easy target’, but my big mouth makes up for that I suppose. I can say some things a people will say ‘I didn’t think you liked that kind of thing’, but there aren’t really any misconceptions. I’m a pretty easy person to read and keep all my emotions on the surface, rather than hide them.

Meh.

This is going to be such a generic, boring answer, because I really don’t know. I’ll know when I meet the right person. But in general I just want somebody who I can get along with, who isn’t too clingy and can put up with me. A best friend and a boyfriend. Physically, I’d prefer someone a lot taller, at least 6 foot (not hard when I’m this short) who’s muscular, but still a bit chubby. I like something to grab on to and 6 packs etc are just not attractive. Good tattoos are always nice, but looks aren’t really that important. It’s the personality that makes the person. I just want to be happy with someone who makes me laugh and accepts me for me. Wah, end of.

I hate this question because I currently have zero luck in relationships, as I get far too attached far too quickly and always end up losing out as the person never likes me in the way I like them. White girl problems!!!

Edit 07/06/2011 2.58am: I’ve been thinking about this a bit more. And I want someone who can teach me things and open my mind to new things. I don’t necessarily think that having similar tastes and ideas to somebody makes a good relationship. I want someone I can debate with, who can introduce me to new ways of thinking, new music, new ideas. I want a spark, electricity. I want to bounce off somebody. Becoming comfortable to the point where things become mundane seems to me like the beginning of the end. I want a relationship that is filled with love, not necessarily excitement until the end, it’s just not plausible, but I never want to become bored of that person.

Edit 08/06/2011 11.06am: Laughter. Make me laugh and I seriously am yours. Looks aren’t important, communication is important. A good conversationalist, seeing as I talk and waffle on for ages. I’d much rather be curled up on the sofa with a cup of coffee and talk with the right person than go out and get pissed with the wrong person. That’s what puts me off guys; when I know that if I was sober, I couldn’t hold down a decent conversation with them. You can’t be awkward in a relationship, it has to be fluid and malleable. You need to listen to each other.

I hate these types of questions because I have no idea. Ideally I’ll be married, possibly with children in a job I enjoy, maybe book publishing/editing. But I just want to be happy. I don’t feel the need to want to be rich, I just want to be doing things I enjoy, and if I’m lucky be in a relationship with a man I love who loves me back. Simple really.